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To be ok with not writing
Guilt-stricken expectations from reading about other writers
As the writer that I secretly want to be, I find it hard to juggle all the self-expectations that I place on myself to find the time to write. It is not an excuse, and I dare not ever make an excuse for something I care. I have also read many successful writers sharing on their journey of writing and what counts is to be consistent at it. It is as good as a daily brushing teeth ritual. But I need a space to rant, and I believe there would be a safe place for such.
I have to admit that I am struggling with daily, consistent writing. Like many other part-time writers who want to take writing beyond daily journaling and reflections, to be a creator of ideas and inspiring impact for others, writing is not our full-time job. It is not mine. It takes place in my daily 1-hour train commute to work, when I finally get 5 minutes of toilet break at work, and an idea strikes me while I’m sitting on the toilet bowl (let me know if you get toilet inspirations as I do). It involves saying ‘No’ to Sunday plans with friends, sometimes feeling sorry for turning down too many invites and intentionally finding my time to write — not forgetting that all these efforts do not get paid!
The strife is not for the money because if it was, I would not be here still. It is to…
