Exploration Gets You to Knowing What You Want

The notion of having to have one job for a long time bothers me.
And what upsets me further is the expectation that at 31, I need to figure already what I want to do with my career FOR LIFE if not it appears to be that I am “way behind”, “confused” or “not knowing what I want to do with your life” to others. My parents get into a shock when I tell them at 31; I still wish to try and explore something new for my work.

For me, I enjoy doing many things. I like writing, reading, dressing up, playing the piano, singing, dancing, yoga…etc. Whenever I start something new, I am excited like a kid that has gotten her new toy, I can see all the right features and benefits of my new found hobby, and my enthusiasm is so convincing. It is until like perhaps a year down the road that I realised I never really have the interest to stay in it for the rest of my life?

My family and friends have gone through with me my various bouts of enthusiasm from the beginning until the end where I found reasons to justify why I am moving on. Hobbies, careers, relationships. I used to beat myself up and compare myself to friends who seem to have one hobby that they stick to for a long time, and in fact, they get better over the years. People who have careers that are going in successive progression and friends in long relationships, marriages…